i am hiawatha

i see all these women blog about their pregnancy essentials, and it makes me laugh. 

my pregnancy essentials:

1. chubbs

2. a place to sit

3. fruit

4. an occasional back rub

5. the cheapest stretch mark lotion i can find
(and it shows... i'm covered in them)

i, sadly, am not one of those moms that cherish every little movement and kick of the baby. 

it's really a love hate relationship i have with this little guy, and i know that's awful. i really do just hate being pregnant. maybe i'm the worst mom ever, or maybe everyone else is just pretending. i have tried to love the experience, but i just can't seem to do it. there is no denying the miracle that is pregnancy. i'm growing a little person inside of me, and that really is pretty cool. our bodies really are amazing. i guess i'm just a "can't-hack-it-panty-waist-who-wears-their-momma's-bra." what can you do?.... 

here's the thing about pregnancy. it stinks. 9 months is such a long time to be uncomfortable/in pain/miserable, and i don't have it half as bad as a lot of angel ladies i know. it is apparent that i am not a strong woman, but i guess i'm ok with that. you know that quote that says, "life is to be enjoyed, not just endured"? i am enduring. of course, i am also enjoying. i love my little family and i love my life. i just can't wait until i can actually enjoy this little guy with the rest of them. i'd rather get no sleep because of crying babies than get no sleep because i hurt. 

pregnancy is the pits. 

i found a blog recently that i really love. 

the day book blog

this lady is 25 and 9 months pregnant with her second kid.

she looks so good and i can't even believe it. 

she has been making a lot of posts about the Target Made to Matter line.

it has a ton of natural beauty products, and she talks about the ones she likes best. 

now, the only time i ever wash my face is on the days when i have to wash off mascara. 

we're talking maybe 2 days a week. 

luckily, my skin loves me when i'm pregnant, so it's not really a problem. i've never had great skin, but i almost never break out while i'm pregnant so it makes me feel like i must have nice skin?.... no. wrong. i don't.

this lady on the blog talks about skin care taking the place of make up. 

i never wear more than mascara these days, but i've been feeling bad about looking so homely while chubbs goes around always looking perfect. 

i've been considering investing in more than my one stick of mascara.

this lady's blog changed everything though. 

it's been a long time since i've felt anything but gross, and i feel like the end of this pregnancy will be like the start to a whole new life. so dramatic, i know.
guys, i don't even remember what it feels like to not be pregnant.

i really want to feel good about myself again, and i'm not saying having nice skin will do that, but it can certainly help. go look at the blog. her skin glows!

we're not rich, so i've only tried a couple of the things she shares, but have loved them both.

1. coconut oil
this stuff works wonders. i love it. who knew coconut oil fixed everything? i rub a little on my face a couple times a day, and my skin is looking great and feeling like a little arthur bum. what more can you want? plus, it just gives your skin a healthy glow, which is lovely.

2.  SheaMoisture Coconut and Hibiscus Body Lotion
this stuff smells like heaven and it feels like heaven and it works like heaven. i've only heard good things about SheaMoisture products, and i'm excited to try more of them. 

maybe one day i can try them all and look like an angel. chubbs can only hope.

well, i'm 38 weeks today. starting monday, i'm trying everything in the book to pop this kid out.

-jumping jacks
-lemon drop cupcakes
-eggplant parmesan
-abuelitas hot chocolate with lots of cream
(that's apparently what did it last time)

-clary sage essential oil
(the stuff stinks to high heaven)
-lots of walking

last night, we pre-registered at the hospital and packed our hospital bag. this is real and it's happening. i'm having a baby and i'm getting really nervous and excited.
life is really good.
thank goodness it can be so good, even when it's so bad.

here's to pushing out kids.