i am hiawatha

i really could take pictures of him all day. we sure got lucky. and my gracious, what hair. 

it's fun to be a parent. i'm fairly certain that i had the best childhood a kid could have, and there's really nothing better than trying to give that to your own kid. it's so fun to watch him learn and grow and laugh and play. to see him copy everything. to see what he thinks is funny or cool or exciting. in a way it is like being a kid again and that's awesome. 

there is definitely plenty of worrying that comes with having a kid, but even that is good i think. it's kind of fun to worry about his future and how he'll turn out, just like it's fun to worry about our future as a family. there are always risks and doubts that come with planning for the future, but i love doing it. i love thinking about our future and everything that comes with it. growing up is hard, and taking on more and more responsibility is hard too, but there is too much good that comes with it that i wouldn't ever go back to being a kid again. i love that every time i roll over at night or have a dumb dream, chubbs is right next to me. i love waking up to arthur noises. i love making breakfast, lunch and dinner for my guys. i love that whenever i think about my future, they are always there too. and i really love that chubbs is the kind of guy who will make sure things work out even if life gets really hard. i never really have to worry too much about our life because i know he'll take care of us, and that feeling is too good to put into words. 

with hugo only three weeks away, i have been worrying a lot about life and how it will change. i like to think arthur will get a better mom once i'm not pregnant, but he'll also have a little brother that i've got to love and take care of. we've only done this whole thing once before and we were lucky enough to get the best baby in the world. i feel like we could never get so lucky again, so i'm preparing for the worst, but always hoping for the best! hugo, we'll sure love you, but you've got a lot to live up to. the moral of the story is, i'm having a baby and there really is nothing we can do about it. we'll do the best we can and hopefully everything will work out. 

i love you family.

anyway. rambler.