i am hiawatha

old navy is having a sale.

 we stocked up. this kid is getting so big.

 the 0-3 have no chance of fitting him anymore.

it's so sad but so exciting at the same time. 

i can't wait until he can talk with me.

and play with me.

and i just really really want to squeeze him tight...

he's a little too small for that right now.

i guess he must be a good mix of the two of us because no one can really ever tell who he looks like.

silas always says dane, but... it's silas, so i don't know.

one thing we do know for sure is that he smiles like a conrad. 

his eyes scrunch up and almost close when he smiles. 

it kills all of us. 

cutest, biggest smiles ever.

besides outgrowing his clothes, i can tell he's growing because he thinks he's starving almost every hour.

thankfully not at night. he usually will go 7 hours at night. 

bless that child. 

i'm scared to have another kid because i KNOW it will be terrible compared to him.

i wouldn't even know what to do. 

no one would be able to tell i have a kid already.

true.

he is so special. i mean that.

i don't know why he wanted to come to us! 

probably to help us, because we certainly can't do much to help him, poor kid.

i try to ask myself "what would tanya do?" as often as i can...  because that would be the right thing to do. 

 i would be the best mom if i was like tanya. 

hopefully i can figure out how before he gets old enough to realize i'm not actually the best mom.

i'll tell you what though... i will love him forever and nothing can stop me!

i literally can't stop kissing him. i can't. i've tried. 

don't you want to eat him?....