this is benjy. 

he left for his mission on october 15th. 

sure love ya. 

he's in louisville, kentucky and i'm so excited for him. 

i follow a lady on instagram who i just found out lives there

and i've always thought she lived in the perfect place.

it's so beautiful. 

benj will love it.

i miss you miss you miss you. 

see you in two years when my kids are bigger than me ;).

                             

this is my little king arthur.

he's the cutest guy. 

he loves outside with his whole heart, 

and he thought this leaf crown we made outside was pretty dang cool.

he will be two in a little over a month, and 

what the heck is that about. 

it's sad that time is going by so fast and he's getting so big, but

i really am loving it. 

i love seeing him learn and grow and i love that we can communicate now.

and while it's sad to think that soon enough he'll be a teenager, 

i'm actually really excited for that too. 

i'm sure by that point he will just think i'm annoying,

 but in my mind i like to think we'll still be good friends.  

maybe we'll stay up late talking about cool things.... i don't know. 

it's nice to think about. 

there are just so many great things about every age,

and while there are things about him i will miss, i just keep getting so excited 

to see him grow up. 

somehow he just keeps getting better and better.

too good to last?... we'll see. 

love you, kid. 

 we love to go on walks. 

center street in provo is just the place for it. 

well, center street and it's surrounding streets. 

so many big, shady trees and cute, old houses.

arthur loves walks, and hugo does too for the most part. 

and i've got to work off that baby weight somehow... 

also, bruges waffles and frites just opened on center street 

.... easily within walking distance.....

i'm working off the baby weight, just to put it right back on with those waffles. 

can't wait. 

arthur, hugo and i have been going on walks and finding pretty fall leaves. 

we shove them between book pages so we can keep them forever,

and remember this cool place we live.

i've been thinking a lot about oregon and missing it more than i should.

throughout most of my life, i tend to forget the bad and only remember the good.

probably because the good is way more memorable, and there hasn't really been 

anything too awful that has happened to me. 

(besides being pregnant. i'll never forget that.)

i'm sure that's what has happened with oregon 

because i sure do have some great memories of living there.

the best, actually. i loved it.

but, this time in provo is really pretty great too.

i'm trying to make the most of our time here, and hoping that when we move away

i'll look back on our time here and miss it like i'm missing oregon.

i guess only time will tell.

but for now, it feels like i left my heart in oregon...

we've had this little guy for 6 weeks now. 

time is moving sometimes so fast 

and sometimes so slow.

mostly fast and mostly good and getting better.

we're all getting the hang of life. for now.

hugo is such a cute little guy, in only the best, funny way.

arthur loves having a little brother, and he's stepping right up to his role of big brother.

i think he gets better every day. 

arthur, i mean.

(hugo, i know you're working on it...)

i love the big smile he gets when he sees hugo in the morning. 

he pops his binky right out to kiss him at least 3 times. 

he is so soft with him, unlike every other little kid i've ever met

(they sure think they're being soft, but really i'm just surprised so many babies survive).

he rubs his head, so softly, on hugo's and smiles the entire time. he loves it.

i just started giving them baths together (so much harder with two...) 

and he smiles and laughs and talks to him the whole time. 

whenever he gets hurt and i need to kiss it better, he makes sure hugo also kisses it better.

there really isn't a better kid alive. 

i love my hugo, but he just cries and sleeps and poops and eats, 

so it's hard to tell what the little guy is really like.

i'm excited to find out, and i hope he turns out a lot like his brother.

from what little i do know about him, he seems to be a pretty good kid.

we're keeping our fingers crossed. 

these are pictures of hugo at 1-2 weeks old. i'm a little behind, but trying to catch up.

this is my cute family. 

i love them too much.