“I think I have this thing where everybody has to think I'm the greatest.And if they aren't completely knocked out and dazzled and slightly intimidated by me, I don't feel good about myself.”

First things first, He is coming.... (if you don't know who He is... then... this is kinda awkward...) in three months... I don't even know what to do... I feel like I'm the beast, the petals are falling, and Gaston is breaking into the castle. call it dramatic, but that's that. 

What's good though, is that I swore on Parley's life that I would do you know what, to you know who, on zero day... I'm dying.

In other news, I just made two new york cheesecakes... :)

Really though, my life is useless. it serves no purpose, but to complete any homework assignment that Mrs. Meeks throws at me. while this is awful, I feel like the rest of my grade is doing the exact same thing, so I'm not that shaken up about it. speaking of grades and assignments, I wrote an essay about you... but not any essay, it was a college admissions essay, that Elisa and Misha could barely comment on because it was "already perfect"... that never happens. and what's more, I had Jodi and Mom read it, and they sobbed the whole way through! not that that's very surprising, except that it wasn't even emotional at all. :). I can't wait to get a 100 on something! geez, I swear, it's all 75s and 80s these days... not really... but kindof yes.

anyway, that's just so exciting... just kidding... it's not. also, I am, at the moment, listening to molly mahoney's first... just let that sink in... 

joodest news, I bought the Fantastic Mr Fox tie... and the anchor bowtie. 

ok... my life is pretty jood :).speaking of fantastic mr fox, Alaynia made me a fantastic mr fox soundtrack, and bought me the book :D. I know... she's the best :). 

Her party was pretty good by the way :). Dane didn't come, but what did we even expect? pretty much, I was the only one from our school, but it turned out to be not so much of a surprise party, and actually a mostly family party.(!) so pretty much, I made small talk with her family, followed her around, and ate jood food. BUT! the best part was, that when everyone had left, Alaynia and I just microwaved up some bedtime tea, sat on her 80-year-old couch, and talked about life! best part of my whole existence! and it was her last night before college! so it was pretty much perfect. I wouldn't have had it any other way, you know? anyway... I'm just rambling now... these cheesecakes aren't doing so well... 

well! just pray that I jrow a pear (heehee) and buck up the courage to triss her!!! it's not working so well... 

I love you and your fat little baby bean just all the way to grandma's house! stop being so good! and in texas... that's the worst part. anyway, I love you all the way. 

Yours ever,

Benj